THE GREY
This is no ordinary life
“ Who you want to hate now pretty soon you gonna hate me “. Lil Peep
Love the muffled vocals as the song opens. Strong sexual promise
“ Nothing like those other mother fvckers”. Lil Peep
Echoes.... glimpses of tuning in as he runs the grey .. “ get my life back but I am beyond ice diamonds dead cold”. The grey turns to black as he sinks into it.
Sometimes dead is unhappy to be so ....
“ Carry me away” I screamed that boy is dying dead ... I screamed and sometimes I cry ... cause it didn’t have to be that way ... now he runs the edges of the grey ...
Pale white skin paler in death with empty holed eyes ... shocked he is gone ... wants to go back change it ... tell my family Sorry ...
If I could take a Polaroid of it ... if I could water color it .... it’d be in black and grey
I want to paint it. His enteral death swim attempt to reach out back into this parallel. I want to be there again ..
I drop my eyes cause I can’t console him ... I can’t
Little boy lost in the mist he is his own storm. Makes me think of those I love ... who live the way he did ... fear is cold when the press you dead button is at their fingertips..
He didn’t want to die he wanted to kill the part of himself that hurt deeply... fell in with other life death chasers he went first
I ask “ can I speak with him?” I am told “ no” ... “no no no” ... maybe one day soon ... I never thought to ask if he really found the devil? If so? That’s why I cannot reach him ... he is in the grey...
It’s cold ... deeply cold
Guardian Angel come near and protect me .. wrap your wings around me ... keep me safe ... vampires are real They kiss and take blood with lust ... they are cold
I am not afraid although you might be ... ever since I was little my Guardian Angel been very close ... in Jesus nothing evil is allowed to enter the circle ... Protect me Jesus 🙏🏼
Irrelevant whether you believe ... I am not responsible for your journey... I am 11 ..
This is no ordinary life
Alone a woman cries and he sees... that is his darkness burden and why he can’t move forward... it’s always the ones who are invested that cry the hardest... shows when he was 5? What happened to make him desperate to be loved??? Idk
Pray for the misguided dead .. they chase after life like a trolley car hoping to just jump back in.
If I lost you that Lil Peep way it would kill me so move over in that coffin cause I would be going you ... it wakes me .. it burns my eyes
They pour cement over coffins to preserve the body .. for??? Don’t pour cement over anyone I love ... they might be trapped in there ...don’t fall asleep with out me
Don’t look for the afterlife. Stay in this life you will be over there soon enough and we are not reborn. Just one life. Just one. This one ... just this one
Wakes me in the night ...
They don’t come through .. very rarely .. people lie to take your money ...
“ Who you want to hate now pretty soon you gonna hate me “. Lil Peep
Love the muffled vocals as the song opens. Strong sexual promise
“ Nothing like those other mother fvckers”. Lil Peep
Echoes.... glimpses of tuning in as he runs the grey .. “ get my life back but I am beyond ice diamonds dead cold”. The grey turns to black as he sinks into it.
Sometimes dead is unhappy to be so ....
“ Carry me away” I screamed that boy is dying dead ... I screamed and sometimes I cry ... cause it didn’t have to be that way ... now he runs the edges of the grey ...
Pale white skin paler in death with empty holed eyes ... shocked he is gone ... wants to go back change it ... tell my family Sorry ...
If I could take a Polaroid of it ... if I could water color it .... it’d be in black and grey
I want to paint it. His enteral death swim attempt to reach out back into this parallel. I want to be there again ..
I drop my eyes cause I can’t console him ... I can’t
Little boy lost in the mist he is his own storm. Makes me think of those I love ... who live the way he did ... fear is cold when the press you dead button is at their fingertips..
He didn’t want to die he wanted to kill the part of himself that hurt deeply... fell in with other life death chasers he went first
I ask “ can I speak with him?” I am told “ no” ... “no no no” ... maybe one day soon ... I never thought to ask if he really found the devil? If so? That’s why I cannot reach him ... he is in the grey...
It’s cold ... deeply cold
Guardian Angel come near and protect me .. wrap your wings around me ... keep me safe ... vampires are real They kiss and take blood with lust ... they are cold
I am not afraid although you might be ... ever since I was little my Guardian Angel been very close ... in Jesus nothing evil is allowed to enter the circle ... Protect me Jesus 🙏🏼
Irrelevant whether you believe ... I am not responsible for your journey... I am 11 ..
This is no ordinary life
Alone a woman cries and he sees... that is his darkness burden and why he can’t move forward... it’s always the ones who are invested that cry the hardest... shows when he was 5? What happened to make him desperate to be loved??? Idk
Pray for the misguided dead .. they chase after life like a trolley car hoping to just jump back in.
If I lost you that Lil Peep way it would kill me so move over in that coffin cause I would be going you ... it wakes me .. it burns my eyes
They pour cement over coffins to preserve the body .. for??? Don’t pour cement over anyone I love ... they might be trapped in there ...don’t fall asleep with out me
Don’t look for the afterlife. Stay in this life you will be over there soon enough and we are not reborn. Just one life. Just one. This one ... just this one
Wakes me in the night ...
They don’t come through .. very rarely .. people lie to take your money ...
